It has been a month since the triple by pass and it has gotten better. I am getting cabin fever. I want to move around more. Retirement is a bitch and I do not like it. I was a bell hop but I am now limited to lifting ten pounds and no more or I could cause damage. It is hard to believe that a surgeon opened up my chest and played with my heart. Creepy but at least I do not remember it. No pain per se but wearing a life vest is a pain in the ass.
I have been made aware of the fact that I was pushing a full heart attack. So I did not have a choice in the matter. Life or death. I still have a lot to live for so I choose life. But I have a good support system. My wife, Alice, acts as nurse and she is pretty good at it. My children have been supportive and helped me get through this. I feel sorry for those who do not have support. Getting through this alone would be terribly hard.
I looked up recovery. If my echocardiogram is above 35 the doctor will allow me to take off the vest and I can go back to work. I have no idea what Lego Land will give me to do, but I would like to be a bartender. I have the gift of gab and communicate well with people. Plus I like drinks and mixology.
I am tired of television and especially the news. There is a commercial which reminds me of death and it appears on every channel. I love the drugs that they are trying to addict us to. Look at the side effects. Most of them can cause death.
Take a pill and maybe die. Meanwhile we have a whole level of our society which Is into taking opiates and taking a chance with death. I do not understand suicide.
If you believe in heaven, your not going after killing yourself. Plus it is burden to your family and friends. Why do it?
Well I am getting tired and will take a break. Mind still works and that is remarkable to me.